June 15.... Deep Breaths...

I didn't realize this title had a double meaning until after I wrote it.  Today's a family meeting (sitting down with doctors, nurses, social worker)- which ALWAYS makes me nervous so at the beginning of the last one, the social worker made stop and take deep breaths before we started... I've been trying to relax - took Sadie to a friend's house for a swim this morning, but now that the time has come, my deep breaths are rather shallow... (as an aside, I've realized that under stress, I revert to my teenage eating habits - today's lunch - pizza, pop, and a chocolate bar... I NEVER eat chocolate bars).
The other meaning of the title is that the main topic of conversation today will be Ryan's lungs... the next steps... and (hopefully not) last resorts...
Hope to be able to write tonight, but might not be able to.  Here we go...